Title:  Uncommon Distractions
Author:  Kay
Email:  kaygrr@hotmail.com
Feedback:  Please?  Because watching a grown girl cry is just
Website:  ssfdu.tripod.com/kay/journal.htm (love for Sandy)
Archive:  Just let me know, eh?
Fandom:  Buffy
Pairing:  (Xander/Graham) + (Xander/Spike) = Xander/Graham/Spike
Rating:  NC-17
Disclaimer:  Mine?  What? *These*?  No, they're Mutant Enemy's.  They
just followed me home and wouldn't leave until I played with them.
Summery:  Graham and Riley are called back to Sunnydale when the area
destabilizes.  When they return, they discover there are new factors
in lives of the Scooby Gang, especially in Xander and Spike's.

K, Melissa, here it is.  After reading so much yummy Xander/Graham
fic, I had to give it a try for myself.  Spike, being Spike, refused to stay
on the sidelines.  This one promises to be a long one, folks - I hope y'all

A special thank you to Karen, who never fails to cheer me on, and to
Sandy, who in addition to listening to me babble also acts as my patron
saint of titles when my brain has gone numb.  Thank you, ladies <hugs>


Available in 3 parts - Part 2   Part 3


Graham had expected to feel more nostalgic about being back on the
college campus.  He'd spent quite a bit of time there, taking classes and
pretending to be an ordinary student.  At the moment however, he really didn't
feel any bursts of fondness or longing for the old days.

Of course, the fact that he was hiding behind a tree and watching
Willow trudge her way to her class might have something to do with it.
Being on a mission tended to take away from the nostalgia-potential of
situations.  He was concentrating on not being seen instead of reliving the past.

He frowned as he watched Willow stumble a little.  She was moving as
though she were half-asleep.  From what he could remember of his own
observations and Riley's stories, she was a fairly bubbly person, ready with a
smile and a line of babble a mile long.  Watching her yawn for the third time
in as many minutes, he doubted she'd be able to stay awake through her next
class, let alone hold a conversation with anyone.  He made sure she entered
her classroom, then leaned up a convenient section of wall and called
Riley.  "Ri, how are things on your end?"

//Sleepy.  I think Tara pulled an all-nighter or something.  She's
yawning all the time and since I'm watching her, I keep yawning too.//

Graham stood up straight.  "Willow looks exhausted, too."

A dirty chuckle drifted into his ears.  //Maybe they just had a
*really* good time last night.//

Graham groaned.  He didn't want to think about them having sex.  Not
that the mental images weren't nice, but they reminded him that he wasn't
having sex.  "She looks way too worn out for that."

//You're right.  Thinking what I'm thinking?//

"Probably.  They're exhausted because of something they've done
that's helping to keep this place quiet."  He relaxed back against the
wall.  "Do you want me to call in a preliminary report?"

//I'll do it.  I've got to do something or I'm going to fall asleep

Graham didn't argue.  It was good to see Riley taking an active
interest in the missions.  Their briefing had included orders for them to stay
away from Buffy and her mentor Giles.  Attempts to keep tabs on the older man
had failed miserably:  surveillance cameras died as soon as they were
brought on line and bugs transmitted nothing but static, if they transmitted
anything at all.  Their superiors believed that he had access to black market
technology that protected him.  Graham was more inclined to listen to
Riley's explanation:  Giles probably had some sort of magical barrier
set up to protect himself.

He knew he was in the wrong line of work when belief in magic came

Because they were unable to maintain any reliable surveillance over
Giles, all attempts to monitor him had been canceled for fear that
his `superior technology' would alert him to any watcher's presence.  Buffy had
been spending the majority of her time in recent weeks with him, so all
surveillance over her had been cancelled as well.  He and Riley had
been given strict orders to stay away from her for the time being.  That
order had worried Graham; bad enough that Riley was worried about his ex,
but then he was forbidden to see her.  Fortunately, he seemed to be taking the
orders in stride, saying something about having time to get his head on

The sound of a bell brought Graham back to himself.  He ducked around
a corner and watched students file out of the packed classroom.  Willow
was one of the last ones out, her eyes half-closed and her feet hardly
rising from the ground.  According to her schedule, she was done with
classes.  For her sake, he hoped she was going straight home.  He shadowed her all
the way to the dorm, at which point he broke off the tail and joined the
surveillance team set up in a van outside the dorm.

Squeezing into the tight quarters, he nodded to Riley, who'd beaten
him there.  "Do we have visual and audio?"

One of the techs nodded.  "Whatever technology that Giles character
has, he hasn't been sharing it.  We've got them both on line just fine."  He
fiddled with a few knobs and the van was filled with sound.  All the men
inside the van listened intently as they watched the color monitors that
revealed what took place inside the dorm room.

Willow lay on the bed, her head pillowed on Tara's lap.  "I'm so
sleepy," she said quietly.  "I didn't expect to feel this tired."

Tara gently stroked her fingers through her girlfriend's hair.  "Me,
too.  It does make sense, though.  Erecting a ward large enough to cover
all of Sunnydale was a really good idea, but I'm still not sure we were
ready for it."

"It had to be done.  There were too many new demons in town.  We
couldn't deal with all of them-"

Tara quieted her with soft touches.  "I know, I know.  Without Buffy,
there wasn't anything else that we could have done.  I'm just glad it

Willow sighed as Tara cuddled her closer.  "I should call her."

"You know she and Giles are probably busy."

"I'm worried about them.  I'm worried about Dawn.  She was so sick
the last time we saw her."

"Giles will figure it out.  You know he will.  Dawn's going to get
better and then we'll have Buffy back."

Graham looked at Riley, who looked baffled.  "Dawn?"

Riley's frown disappeared abruptly.  "Buffy's little sister."

That was right.  How could he have forgotten Dawn?  So Dawn was sick
and Buffy and Giles were concentrating on her.  Her friends had coped by
putting up some kind of magical shield around Sunnydale to keep the HSTs
out.  Graham nodded to himself.  That felt right.  He quietly ran his
interpretation past Riley, ignoring the disdainful look the tech gave
him for believing in anything except technology.

Riley nodded.  "That's what I'm thinking.  Xander's probably doing
research or something like that, maybe running the magic shop with Anya to
help out."
He climbed out of the van, waiting for Graham to follow.  "We
should report back in."  He told the tech to call them if the girls gave
indication of moving and then led the way to their vehicle.

Graham thought them going anywhere a remote possibility.  He was
half-tempted to order Willow and Tara a pizza anonymously to make
sure they ate before they gave into sleep.  He hesitated for a moment, then
gave in to the impulse and pulled out his cell phone.  He ordered the pizza and
paid for it with a personal credit card.  He caught Riley smiling at him.

"Nothing."  Riley looked back through the windshield, concentrating
on the road once more.  "Even though we've got this thing figured out, we
should probably cover all the bases."

Graham shot him a narrow-eyed looked.  The smile hadn't
disappeared.  "How?"

"You know, check up on the rest of the group.  Keep an eye on
whoever's left tomorrow.  Let's see...we followed Willow and Tara today, so that

Graham balled up a convenient piece of paper and tossed it at him.
He knew confessing his crush was a mistake.  Riley hadn't been fazed by
Graham coming out to him; instead, he took childish glee in teasing him
about the various men he found attractive.  He never should have told him why
he was always asking about Xander.  He never would have heard half the
stories Riley made a special point to tell him, but...he sighed.  Any amount
of teasing was worth hearing Xander stories, especially since Riley was
a good enough friend to edit Anya out of them so Xander always seemed

A man could dream, couldn't he?

"Tyndal might not agree with you," he said, stifling the hope rising
within him.

"He seems like a methodical man," Riley said.  "And Xander's always
been in the thick of things before."

Graham glared at him for as long as he could before giving up and
laughing.  "Government approved stalking.  I get paid for it this time!"

"It's got to be better for you than when you were doing it on your
own.  How much extra time did you have to spend in the gym after scarfing junk
just to talk to him?"

Graham flipped Riley off and relaxed in his seat.  It had been worth
it.  And he might just be fooling himself, but most times he bought
something from Xander, he ended up with extra fries or a drink he hadn't
ordered.  It was no undying declaration of love, and it had played havoc with his
cholesterol, but it was enough to give him some hope.  Xander didn't
just give free onion rings to anyone.  Graham would know - he'd spent
enough time watching him, after all.

Their meeting with Tyndal was brief.  He listened to their reports,
nodding thoughtfully.  "I concur with your observations, men.  The actions of
the two women seem to be the most likely explanation for the quick turn
around in the situation here."  He flipped through some papers on his desk
and for a moment Graham was sure they were going to be dismissed.  Tyndal
looked up.
"Still, I prefer to be thorough.  I want you to shadow the Harris
boy tomorrow, just to be sure all our bases are covered."

"Yes, sir."  Wonder of wonders, both of them managed to keep a
straight face.  As they left the office, Graham knew he was in for a long
night of teasing.  That was fine by him.  If it helped distract Riley from his
own problems, then Graham would take the cute remarks and jokes at his
expense in stride.

Besides, he was going to see Xander tomorrow.  What else mattered
compared to that?


"You know what I hate most about this job?"

Graham didn't bother to answer.  He knew he wasn't expected to.  He
just concentrated on putting one foot in front of the other.  A few more
minutes and they'd be back at base, back where there were showers and clean
clothes and aspirin.

Riley wasn't fazed by his lack of response.  "It's not the hours.  I
can handle being out all night, I've been doing it for years.  It's not
the slime and mucus and ick that we run into, either.  That stuff
washes.  It's the lack of bragging rights."

Graham nodded, continuing his methodical pace.  "Next time we're in a
bar and everyone starts bragging about the ops they've been a part of-"

"We're going to be stuck with our mouths glued shut by top secret
clearances," Riley finished.  "We won't be able to say anything so
everyone else is going to feel all big and bad because they beat up on some po-
dunk terrorist death squad.  Meanwhile, we have just taken out an entire
nest of  Dimoir demons-"

"Way tougher than any pansy-ass bunch of terrorists!"

"And we won't be able to tell anyone and make them shut their damn
mouths."  Riley shifted his pack with a muffled curse.  "First stop, medics

Graham grunted his agreement.  The Dimoirs had been a bitch to route
out, but they'd finally won.  He wanted a shower more than anything else,
but he wouldn't turn down pain relievers.  He was feeling mildly pulped and
Riley was in worse shape.  Lately his tall friend had been throwing himself
into skirmishes with near-mindless intensity, risking his life and his
health without hesitation.  Graham was worried about him.  The silent fury
that filled him had only appeared once he left Sunnydale.  Graham
suspected it had to do with his break up with Buffy, but Riley refused to discuss
it.  All Graham could do was try to keep him alive until he worked things
out for himself.

It wasn't an easy task.  They were based in the middle of the South
American jungle working to contain a recent outbreak of demon attacks on
humans there.  The government considered it good training for further
encounters inside US borders.  Their excursions into the jungle were filled with
gunfire and blood and death.  Graham was beginning to look forward to
returning state side and having some downtime.  He just had to make
sure Riley made it back with him.

The medics bandaged them up quickly, used to having them come in with
assorted scrapes and bruises.  Graham was halfway into shower mode
when they were stopped by a soldier ordering them to report to their commanding
officer immediately.  Graham cast a worried glance at Riley.  They couldn't
be sent back out into the field.  He was exhausted and Riley was in
no shape for any sort of combat.  While they were waiting to be admitted into
the office, Graham tried to come up with reasons that would excuse them
from going back out.

When they were finally admitted into the office, their CO was
flipping through a folder.  He didn't look up as they entered.  "At ease.  I
know you've just come in from the field.  You're due for some downtime,
but I'm afraid I'm gong to have to ask you to prepare to ship out

"Where to, sir?" Riley asked.

"Back to Sunnydale."  Graham didn't miss the way that Riley tensed
up.  "The situation there has destabilized drastically in the past few days.
It is too important a strategic area to allow this to continue.  We need
people to go in and assess the problem and if need be take steps to restore
order.  You two are the most qualified men we have.  There's a plane leaving
in an hour.  Pack up and be on it."

"Sir."  They acknowledged and saluted as one.


As they packed, Graham waited for Riley to say something.  There
really wasn't a way for him to broach the subject - "So, Ri, looking forward
to seeing the ex?"  "Gee, it'll be great to get back to the scene of so
much death and destruction and humiliating defeats, won't it?"  But Riley
didn't say a word; he just packed his gear with robotic efficiency.  They
were on the plane in plenty of time and still Riley stayed silent.  Graham
fought the urge to fidget.  He was worried about Riley and worried about the
situation in Sunnydale.  What could've happened to Buffy that she let
things get out of hand?  What if something had happened to her?

What if something had happened to one of her friends?

A chill rippled through him and he pushed the thought away.  Xander
was fine.  He had to be.  Graham wasn't going to have spent so much time
thinking about him and dreaming over him only to find out something
had happened to him while he was gone.  As it so often did in quiet
moments, his mind turned to Xander.  He'd never really spoken to the dark-haired
man, but his dreams had been full of him ever since he'd first seen him.  He'd
slowly grown to recognize him as a part of the Slayer's team.  Whenever
Riley spoke about time spent with Buffy, Graham listened most intently when he
talked about things Xander had done or said.

He had been fascinated by the smile in Xander's eyes, the way he
laughed his way through life in a town filled with creatures spawned from hell.
Graham wanted to know what it was like to be able to do that.  He wanted to
know what it was like to hear Xander laugh, to maybe even be the one to
make him do it.  That fascination had been influenced by a healthy dose of
attraction:  he hadn't missed Xander's broad shoulders or long eyelashes.
Soon, chance encounters hadn't been enough contact for him and he had
begun to deliberately seek the other man out.  He'd risked food poisoning
and worse going to the various jobs that Xander had held.  He would order
his burger or buy his Icee and linger in the store, watching the way
Xander moved with covetous eyes.  Every so often he'd be rewarded by having
Xander smile at him as he wished him a nice day.  It wasn't much, but the
warmth he felt inside each time it happened was more than enough to keep him
coming back for more.

Dividing his time between worrying about Xander and worrying about
Riley, Graham gave in to the pain medication coursing through his system and
fell asleep.  He awoke as the plane touched down.  Looking at his friend,
he couldn't tell if Riley had slept or not.  The dark smudges beneath
the blond man's eyes didn't give him much hope.  The silence between them
continued as they were led to the office of the major in charge of maintain
surveillance over the Sunnydale area.

Major Tyndal shuffled the papers on his desk.  "Take a seat, gentlemen.  I
know you're just in from the field."  As they did so, he pushed two
folders across the desk toward them.  "The situation in Sunnydale has changed
since the time you went airborne.  At first, there was a total breakdown in
the Slayer's control; HSTs were running unchecked through the town and
chaos levels had noticeably risen.  This continued for several days until
the situation reached a critical level, at which point you were called
in.  Eighteen hours ago, the situation changed.  The influx of HSTs into
Sunnydale has slowed nearly to a stop and those already there have
ceased all overtly hostile activities.  There is still more disorder than
usual, but it has returned to manageable levels.  Our surveillance on the
Slayer reveals that she is still out of the field, so something else must
causing the stability.  For this reason, your mission has changed.  You are
no longer to restore order, but instead determine exactly what changed
last night and how order is being maintained."

As Tyndal spoke, Graham perused the file in his hands.  He nodded to
himself as he found that Buffy was alive.  For reasons not known, she had
stopped patrolling the town as Slayer.  He snuck a glance at Riley and was
pleased to see him relax for the first time since they'd been told they were
returning.  Graham was relieved as well; he hadn't wanted to think
that something serious might have happened to Buffy.  Experience told him
that it took a Slayer to control the Hellmouth and he didn't want to imagine
the sort of chaos that could result if she was taken out of the picture
permanently.  Even more importantly, he didn't want to think about
how Riley would react to losing Buffy forever.

"Any thoughts, gentlemen?"

Riley inhaled slowly.  "Buffy didn't always work on her own."  Graham
knew Riley was reluctant to bring her friends into this, but it was his
duty as a soldier.  Besides, it wasn't as though they hadn't already come to
the attention of the military.

"That is our current hypothesis as well.  We believe that her friends
have brought the situation under control.  We want to know how they are
doing so and if their efforts are going to last or if this is merely a
temporary measure.  We've moved surveillance teams into position to monitor
them.  You two have had the most experience working in this area:  I'm relying
on you to join the surveillance and assess the situation.  Is that

Graham rose to his feet, as did Riley.  "Yes, sir."

"If it is indeed the work of the Slayer's friends, then you are to
also determine if they will benefit from our aid.  Remembering the
catastrophe that occurred the last time we became involved in Sunnydale, I am
reluctant to send any men in unless certain that they will be able to
effectively deal with the situation."

"Yes, sir."

"Quarters have been assigned to you.  You have twelve hours downtime
to rest and finish reviewing your briefing materials before joining the
surveillance teams.  Dismissed."

Graham saluted and followed Riley out the door.  Out in the hall,
Riley sighed hugely.  "She's alive."

Graham grasped his shoulder in a strong grip.  "Come on.  You need to
sleep."  He was pleased to see Riley nod.  He had a feeling that they
had better take what rest they could get.  Missions on the Hellmouth had
a tendency to get ugly fast and with no warning.  Forget the distractions
presented by Buffy for Riley and Xander for himself; they were going
to have their hands full just staying alive.


Graham sighed blissfully and opened the passenger door to the vehicle.
Humming to himself, he climbed inside.

"Are you sure you don't want to drive?" Riley asked.

Graham just grinned and shook his head.

"Right.  Distracted.  I should've known."  Riley got behind the wheel with
a rueful smile.

"You should've," Graham agreed.  Riley knew he was in no shape for
concentrating on the road.  Oh, he could have done it if it had been
necessary, but he really didn't want to.  They'd just finished staking out
Xander at his current job.

God bless construction work.

Riley had seemed bored most of the time they had spent watching the
construction site of a new set of tract of housing, but Graham had been
enthralled.  Xander had walked around in faded jeans and a button down
shirt, carrying lumbar and tools.  He had been quiet, but had laughed and
joked around with the other workers when they spoke to him.  He seemed
popular, always ready to lend a hand if it was needed before anyone could
even ask.  Graham hadn't been able to hear anything that was said, but the
smiles on the faces of the men around Xander made him wish he could.

As the day had grown warmer, Xander shed his shirt and just wore a white
undershirt.  Riley had made a show of waving his hand in front of Graham's
face to break his concentration.  Graham smacked the offending hand away;
it was blocking his view of Xander.  The dark-haired man's face had been set
in lines of concentration as he had focused on sawing boards down to size and
plotting out angles and distances for walls and foundations.  The afternoon
sun had summoned up a sheen of moisture that covered Xander's skin and his
body had gleamed as he worked the day away.

Graham closed his eyes, picturing Xander once more.  The image that rose
in his mind wasn't perfect:  Xander had only really spoken when spoken to,
and his eyes had been dark with weariness.  It wasn't the same exhaustion as
they had seen in the girls, but Graham still didn't like it.  He asked
Riley, "Did you notice how tired he looked?"

"What, you did?" Riley asked with exaggerated surprise.  "I would've
thought you were too busy staring at his ass."

Graham glared at him.  "I didn't *just* look at his ass."

"True.  The rest of the time, you were making sheep's eyes at the rest of

"Only you would make a comment about sheep's eyes.  I guess that unhealthy
obsession you developed with them back on the farm never really - hey!"
They were going to have to clean up the car.  There were too many pieces
of paper lying about that Riley could ball up and throw at him.

"He should head straight home," Riley said, mind back on the mission.
"We'll connect with the surveillance team there and see if we can find out
what's got him so worn out."  They couldn't risk following him too closely
themselves for fear of being spotted, so another team would handle that
until he reached his house.  Graham and Riley crammed themselves inside a
different surveillance van just as the sun started to go down.

Graham watched the video screens with interest, wanting to see what
Xander's apartment looked like.  It didn't have much in the way of furniture in the
living room or two bedrooms and it was cluttered as though Xander hadn't
had time to do any real cleaning.  It wasn't dirty; it just wasn't neat.  It
looked as though Xander hadn't been spending much time there...Graham
resolutely ignored that line of thought.  No thinking about Xander
spending all his time with Anya for him.  He'd just think about Xander in a tank
top some more instead.

The sound of the van's radio crackling to life startled him out of his
reverie.  //Harris has been joined by an unknown individual.  They're both
enroute to his apartment.//

"Copy that," Riley acknowledged.  "It's probably Anya," he said quietly,
glancing at Graham.

"Probably," Graham agreed, keeping his tone neutral.  No need to broadcast
his crush to the techies, now was there?  He watched the monitor more
closely and was rewarded after several minutes by seeing Xander enter the
apartment closely followed by...Hostile 17?

Graham heard Riley swear and instantly sympathized.  He'd heard Riley
complain about Spike and the way the vampire was sniffing around Buffy
more times than he could count.  He remembered Spike from his incarceration
within the Initiative compound, when he was just Hostile 17 awaiting
chip-insertion.  He'd noticed the vampire because of his amazing eyes and
lean body, feeling the insistent pull of lust even as he'd reminded
himself that the man was evil.  What the hell was he doing with Xander?

Neither man said anything.  Xander dropped his tools on the floor and
headed for the bathroom, the only room without a camera in it, while Spike walked
into the kitchen.  While Xander showered and changed his clothes, Spike
pulled a bag of liquid out of the refrigerator and poured it into a
saucepan, as well as stuck a frozen dinner in the microwave.  By the time
Xander returned, hair damp and wearing clean clothes, Spike had the dinner
waiting for him on the counter.  Xander took it with a quiet thank you and
wolfed it down.  Spike watched him, sipping the heated liquid that he'd
poured into a mug.

Blood, Graham realized.  Spike kept blood in Xander's refrigerator.  And
made Xander dinner!  What the hell was this?  Riley was no help; he looked
even more confused then Graham felt.  They both stared at the screen,
trying to understand what was happening.

Spike watched Xander over the rim of his mug.  "Maybe you should stay in
tonight.  You look tired."

Xander licked his fork clean and shook his head.  "We've got work to do.
No rest for the weary."  He threw out his dinner box and opened one of the
drawers in the kitchen and pulled out a pair of stakes and a handgun.  "No
rest for the wicked, either," he said, shrugging on a jacket.  "Let's

Spike tossed back the rest of his blood.  Wiping the back of his hand
across his mouth, he followed Xander out the door.

"Where the hell are they going?" Graham asked.  "Xander just spent the
last ten hours at work!"  He grasped the door handle to the van's side door,
waiting for the all clear signal.  As soon as the tech nodded, he and
Riley hit the street.  They kept their distance, not wanting either man ahead to
notice them.  Neither of them spoke; focused on the mission, Graham pushed
his concern to the side to deal with later.

Xander and Spike moved with purpose; they weren't out on the random
wandering patrols that Riley had described as being the usual for Buffy's
friends.  The two men walked quickly toward their goal:  one of Sunnydale's
many cemeteries.  Once inside, they slowed down, speaking in quiet tones
to each other.

Graham shook his head.  They were an open invitation to attack.

He should have remembered what thinking thoughts like that in Sunnydale
could do.  Five figures appeared from the shadows, circling Xander and
Spike.  Graham eyed Riley, waiting for a signal that they should

Riley shook his head so Graham went back to watching, muscles tense.  If
Xander looked like he was in trouble, he was going in.  He was sure Riley
would be right beside him.

Xander and Spike separated, turning to keep the beings surrounding them in
sight.  The five strangers vamped out as they closed in.  Xander immediately
pulled out the stakes he had stashed away, Spike vamped out, and the fight
was on.  Xander staked one of the vampires immediately and fended off
another with his stake, while Spike dusted two others before they could
react.  Spike barely paused before leaping upon a third, knocking it to
the ground and snapping its neck before thrusting a stake into its heart.  The
blond man was on his feet immediately and moved in on the remaining
 Obviously frightened, the final attacker hesitated, giving Xander the
opportunity to stake it cleanly.

Graham watched as Spike spoke intently to Xander.  It didn't make any real
sense, but it looked as though Spike was protecting Xander.  Not just
making sure that he didn't die, which would have made sense from the situation
Riley had explained:  Spike had to keep him alive or else Buffy would kill
him.  Spike had gone beyond that, though.  He had hurried the killing of
the vampires he'd faced, not taking any time to toy with them or enjoy the
carnage.  Not only that, but now he was checking Xander over carefully,
damn near fussing over him to make sure that he hadn't been hurt.  It was
impossible, but it looked like Spike cared about Xander, that he was
actually worried about whether Xander was injured or not.

Graham consciously relaxed his hands, loosening the fists he hadn't
realized he'd made.  He didn't like seeing Xander in danger; he liked seeing Spike
practically fawn over him even less.  Spike had to have some sort of plan,
one that would ultimately end up hurting Xander.  It might relate back to
the vampire's obsession with Buffy, the one that made Riley crazy every
time he talked about it.  Whatever it was, Graham wasn't just going to stand by
and let the blond bastard use Xander.  He'd find a way to work it into
mission parameters: he wasn't going to let Xander be hurt.

Riley's hand on his shoulder forced Graham out of his brooding reverie.
Graham nodded sharply to indicate that his head was back in the game.  He
watched as Spike argued with Xander, their voices too low for him to know
over what.  Whatever it was, Xander refused to go along with Spike.  The
vampire lit a cigarette, his jerky movements telegraphing his irritation
clearly.  He wasn't angry enough to leave Xander, though; the two men
continued walking deeper into the cemetery together.  Graham and Riley
drifted along behind them, waiting to see what happened next.

The demon that arose slavering from behind a tomb came as a complete
surprise to Graham.  He immediately pulled out his side arm, as did Riley
beside.  Of course, that was after he took a few steps back and successfully
managed not to soil himself.  He clamped down on his panic, smoothly
shifting into battle mode.  His emotions faded away and he became the
soldier he'd trained so long to be:  calculating and cool and efficient.
It was this calm that allowed him to notice a few things, even as the demon
rose to its true height and loomed large in the moonlight.

First, Spike and Xander didn't really seem surprised by the demon's
appearance.  Neither man wasted anytime with surprised exclamations or
panic;  instead, Xander retreated a few paces and pulled out the handgun
he'd retrieved at his apartment.  At the same time, Spike launched himself
at the demon, not hesitating for a moment as he tore at the creature with
clawed hands.

Second, Spike was definitely protecting Xander.  The vampire was pitting
himself against a demon, a creature that he could injure and torment as
much as he liked without any repercussions from the chip inside his head.
Riley had spent hours talking about the reasons why he loathed Spike, so Graham
knew quite a bit about him.  He knew that Spike should have been
inflicting as much damage on the demon as possible, drawing out its pain as he
concentrated on enjoying the torture.  Instead, he was working as quickly
as he could to kill the demon, glancing back at Xander whenever he could,
checking on the dark-haired man to be sure that he was all right.

Graham and Riley held their positions.  So long as Spike and Xander were
in no real danger, they had no reason to break cover and compromise the
mission.  That didn't mean that Graham wasn't burning to interfere, to
pull Xander away from both the demon and the vampire, but he stayed true to his
training and didn't reveal himself.

Spike kicked the demon once more in the head then leapt away from it,
giving Xander a clear shot at it.  Holding his weapon with surprising
professionalism, Xander fired two shots.  With a wailing sigh, the demon
collapsed, its skull shattered by the two bullets.  Spike nodded approvingly
toward Xander.  The two men spoke quietly, then walked quickly out of the
cemetery, heading back to Xander's apartment.

Graham and Riley continued to follow them at a distance.  After watching
the two men enter the apartment building, Graham led the way to the
surveillance van.  He sat down and scooted closer to the wall of television screens,
needing to see what was coming next.

Xander put away the stakes, then reloaded and stored the gun.  He then
disappeared into the bathroom again and once more emerged with damp hair,
wearing a pair of blue flannel pants and nothing else.  He yawned hugely.
"Night, Spike."

"Night, Whelp."  Spike was sprawled across the couch flipping through a

Xander walked into his bedroom and flopped down onto the bed, sighing as
he wriggled around on the sheets.  After finding a comfortable position, he
fell asleep almost immediately.

As soon as Xander disappeared, the vampire tossed the magazine onto the
table and rose to his feet.  He began to move about the apartment, quietly
putting used dishes in the dishwasher, shifting Xander's tools off to the
side so they were no longer a hazard, and just in general neatening the

"I wonder if he does windows," the tech commented.

Graham exchanged a confused glance with Riley.  What the hell was going
on?  Spike was now Xander's houseboy?  He didn't like this at all.  Spike
wasn't acting at all like the vampire Graham remembered from his confinement
within the Initiative base.  There, he'd been coiled energy personified,
muttering scorching curses and always looking for a chance to escape.  Riley had
told him tales of Spike gleefully reveling in violence, and yet the blond man
was picking up the apartment of a supposed foe.  And since when was Xander
comfortable about having Spike in his apartment?  They were wishing each
other good night like they were Waltens instead of enemies.  Graham
impatiently motioned for the tech to turn up the volume.

Spike finished with his cleaning.  For a moment he stood in the middle of
the apartment, shifting his weight as if in indecision.  The moment passed
and he walked silently across the room to Xander's bedroom door.  He
paused outside, head cocked to the side as though listening.  After a few moments
he slowly pushed the door open and went inside.

Graham's muscles tensed as he readied himself to move.  He knew Spike was
chipped, knew that he couldn't hurt Xander, but he couldn't relax.  The
moment it looked as though Spike was going to do anything to harm Xander,
Graham was going to be out of the van and up the stairs to stop him.

Spike stood in the doorway, staring down at Xander.  His gaze roamed over
the sleeping man's body, tracing the lines of his back, the way one of his
legs hung off the bed.  He stood like that for long minutes, then walked
toward Xander.  He reached out and lifted Xander's leg, gently maneuvering
it back onto the bed before pulling the blanket up to cover him.  He brushed
his fingertips over the exposed skin of Xander's shoulder, then silently
left the room.  He walked over to the other bedroom, shed his clothes and
fell into bed himself.

After neither man moved for a half-hour, the tech leaned back in his chair.
"Show's over.  Harris will sleep for another five hours and then get up
for work, and this Spike guy will sleep for most of the day.  Then he'll
either leave wearing a protective layer for the sun or wait for Harris to come

Graham nodded and he and Riley exited the van.  As they drove back toward
base, Riley looked over at him.  "Weird."

"Weird is putting it mildly.  Since when is Spike Xander's guardian

"I think Tyndal needs to hear about this."

Graham agreed.  As soon as the returned to base, they reported to the
Tyndal received them in his office, listening to their observations
without comment.  He nodded slowly as they fell silent.  "I think you men
are right.  Harris and this Spike's actions are out of character, based on
all the intelligence we've gathered on them.  It needs to be looked

"I have a theory, sir," Graham volunteered.  After Tyndal nodded his
encouragement, he continued.  "I believe that Willow and Tara's spell is
keeping any more HSTs from entering the Sunnydale area, but that doesn't
explain why the ones already present are more under control.  I think that
Harris and Spike are responsible for the restoration of order."

"Or at least play a large part in it," Riley added.

Tyndal considered their words.  "I agree.  Tomorrow, I want you to initiate
contact with Harris.  If he's part of the reason the situation here hasn't
completely gone to hell, then I want you to help him.  We need the
Hellmouth stable for the sake of national security and I'm not willing to rely on
the efforts of one civilian and an HST."  He shuffled some of the papers on
his desk.  "For the time being, avoid contact with Summers.    Until we
understand why she's abandoned her work as the Slayer I don't want her

Graham and Riley snapped salutes at the major and were dismissed.  As they
walked toward their quarters, Graham watched Riley carefully.  He'd just
been ordered to stay away from his ex.  Graham had no idea what to say, so
he settled for sneaking glances at his friend at every opportunity.

Finally, Riley couldn't take it anymore.  "I'm fine, Graham.  I'm not
happy, but I'm fine."

Graham nodded slowly.  Riley had never been able to lie to him, not about
anything that really mattered.  "Just checking."

"I know."  A sudden grin lit the light-haired man's face.  "Actually, I
should be worried about you.  After all, tomorrow you're going to be
meeting Xander."

Graham froze, his shirt half-pulled over his head.  He glared at Riley.
"You fuck."

Riley's grin was unrepentant.  "We've been ordered to contact him.  To
closely with him."

Graham threw his shirt at Riley.  "Now I'm never going to get to sleep."

Riley pulled the shirt off his head and tossed it back at him.  "Just
don't be too loud, all right?  I need my beauty rest."

"No amount of rest is going to help that mug of yours."  Graham fell
easily into the pattern of bickering, but his heat wasn't in it.  He was going to
see Xander tomorrow.  He was going to talk to him and be near him and not
have to stalk him...

He was never going to get to sleep.


Xander fiddled with the radio in his car, searching for a station to help
keep him awake on his drive home.  Spike hadn't shown up at the site, so
he didn't have anyone to talk to.  Settling on Linkin Park, he sang along
quietly as he drove.  Work was going to slow down for the next few weeks
as inspectors moved through the area, doubling checking that everything
was up to code, so he was looking forward to the coming half-days.  He was
going to get some much needed sleep.

Just not while he was driving.  He turned up the volume.  He had to stay
awake; there was more work to do tonight.  He and Spike needed to finish
cleaning out the nest of fledges infesting the Quiet Rest Cemetery.
They'd gotten some of them the night before, but Xander knew there were
more, and he knew where they were hiding.  They needed to get rid of them
before they had a chance to multiply.

He parked his car and walked up the stairs, hoping that Spike would be
He liked coming home and having someone be there.  He liked coming home
and having *Spike* be there.  He recognized that thought as dangerous, but
he couldn't help it.  Spike had become a friend, a good friend that Xander
looked forward to seeing.  The animosity between them had disappeared, its
only lingering trace remaining in the bickering they engaged in as a
matter of habit.  The heat was gone from their words, though; the battle
of words was now just a game.  Over time, Xander had come to appreciate
Spike's biting humor, his eagerness to join in a fight, his clear, blunt
way of looking at situations, the way his black jeans hugged his ass...

Xander shook his head.  That thought went beyond dangerous.  It was an
unauthorized thought, one he didn't want to have, and it kept coming back
again and again.  He paused outside the door, taking a moment to gather
himself before unlocking it and walking inside.  He opened his mouth to
speak, but didn't get the chance.

"Save me the Ricky Ricardo bit," Spike called from the couch.  "I hate
that damn show."

Xander closed his mouth and grinned.  "But that's why it's so much fun to

The blond man raised two fingers in an obscene gesture.  Xander ignored
him and dropped his tools by the door.  He grabbed a clean pair of jeans
and a t-shirt and headed for the bathroom, needing to take a shower and
wash away the sweat and dirt from the day at work.  He washed quickly,
hoping that if they got out on the streets early, he'd be able to come
back and get a little more sleep.

Exiting the bathroom, he looked around the apartment for Spike.  The
vampire was in the kitchen, watching two pans he had on the stove.  Xander
wandered over.  "Double helpings tonight?"

"One of them's for you."  Spike stirred one of them with a spoon.

Xander watched in horrified fascination as the thick red liquid swirled
around in the pan.  "Please tell me you're using two spoons."

The look Spike shot him was gleefully evil, and sexy as hell.

Another unauthorized thought!  Xander backed away from Spike and busied
himself by rooting around in the fridge, searching for something to drink.
 This situation was bad and it was getting worse.  Xander could get around
lust.  Lust, he was used to.  He could still vividly remember being
subject to the whims of his hormones when he was a teenager, when the
sight of a girl's bare leg or a boy's muscled arm would send heat and
embarrassment coursing through him in equal measure.  He was a little more
in control now, and had learned to live with the sudden rush of desire
that he felt when he looked at Spike.  He used to be able to control it by
reminding himself what Spike was; it was hard to check out a guy when you
were concentrating on not letting him kill you.  Now that he had become a
friend and the next best thing to a roommate, Xander found that it was
more and more difficult to ignore the lust he felt toward the vampire.

It was more and more difficult to ignore that lust growing into something
deeper and even more frightening.  Familiarity was supposed to breed
contempt, but in Xander's case the exact opposite was happening.  He
couldn't do this.  It was stupid and futile and dangerous.  There was no
way Spike could ever feel the same way.  Xander was only going to get
himself hurt and he'd probably end up destroying the friendship they'd
begun to build between them.  He had to figure out a way to stop this.

He settled on a bottle of juice and straightened, turning in time to see
Spike pour the contents of each pan into separate mugs:  cream of
something soup and blood.  "You'd better have used separate spoons,"
Xander muttered, twisting the cap off his juice.

Spike smirked as he handed him his mug.  "Drink up."

As Xander sipped at his soup he realized how much his life had changed.  A
month ago he never would have allowed Spike anywhere near his apartment,
and certainly wouldn't have invited him to enter.  Now he looked forward
to having the vampire in the house; the other man's presence was warming
him even more than the soup.  Xander sipped at the soup, hiding his smile
behind the rim of the mug.  Spike wasn't an enemy any longer.  Now he was
a friend, practically living with Xander, and every day Xander feared him
a little less and fell in love with him a little more.

Xander choked on his soup.  Bad brain!  That thought was so unauthorized
that his brain was now committing crimes as far as he was concerned.
There was no way he was falling in love with Spike.  He was had too much
going on in his life to be making that colossal of a mistake.  His head
began to ache as his thoughts swirled in tightening circles of denial and

He was grateful when the doorbell rang, eager for a distraction from his
thoughts.  He swallowed the rest of his soup and headed for the door.  He
had no idea who it could be.  Willow and Tara should still be too worn out
to even think about moving beyond the campus.  It wouldn't be Buffy or
Giles - they were still communicating solely by telephone, so focused on
their task that nothing else could catch their attention.  He peered
through the peep hole, not willing to just open his door.  He might be
suicidally foolish when it came to his love life, but no way was he going
to just open the door and wait for something to take his head off.

Although that would certainly teach his brain a lesson.

He swore as soon as he realized what he was seeing.  "Spike, maybe you'd
better head out the back way."

"What is it?"

"Riley.  Riley Finn and he's got someone with him."  Xander turned around
and glared at Spike.  "Why are you still here?  I think the guy with him
was a part of the Initiative."

The vampire shook his head.  "Why don't you open the door?"

"Spike, what the hell is Riley doing back in town with the Initiative?
They could be here for you."  Xander fought down the panic he felt at the
thought.  "You need to get out of here."

"I'm not going anywhere, pet."  Spike's posture was one of complete
nonchalance, but his fingers moved restlessly, telegraphing his readiness
for action.  He noticed Xander's hesitation and smiled.  "It'll be all

Xander knew it was crazy, but he believed him.  He nodded and opened up
the door.

Riley's smile was definitely nervous.  "Hey, Xander."

"Riley."  He didn't open the door all the way and blocked the view to his
apartment with his body.  He couldn't help it; as long as he was able, he
was going to try to protect Spike.  "Is there something I can help you

Riley nodded.  "I think there's a way we can help each other.  Can we come

"Sure."  Xander stepped back to allow Riley and the man with him to enter.
 He hadn't known the other man well, but he'd come to like him.  He wanted
to think that he could trust Riley but he couldn't be sure.  Riley had
gone back to the Initiative, leaving Buffy and the rest of them behind.

He watched Riley and the other man enter.  Neither of them seemed
especially surprised to see Spike.  The vampire bared his teeth in a
parody of smile and Riley nodded toward him.  Xander used the opportunity
presented by the two men looking around his apartment to study Riley's
companion.  He recognized the other man as a member of the Initiative and
a friend of Riley, but he knew him from other places, too.  The blue-eyed
man had shown up at quite a few of the jobs Xander had held in the past
year, ordering burgers and ice cream and nachos from him.  Xander had
noticed him because of his strong handsome features and intense blue eyes.
 He'd nursed a secret fantasy that the other man had come to all those
places just to see him.  It had been a nice dream to fall into and help
pass the time during different mind-numbingly boring jobs, but he knew in
reality that the guy was probably just addicted to junk food.  He had to
work out quite a bit in order to compensate...Xander felt the old rush of
attraction, just as strong as ever, wash over him all over again.

If he didn't gain control of his libido soon, he was going to have to call
on Willow to do some sort of temporary neutering spell.

"What are you doing back in town?" Xander asked as Riley and Graham
finally settled down into the two chairs.  He sat down on the arm of the
couch and was conscious of Spike coming to stand beside and slightly
behind him.

To his credit, Riley answered immediately with no hint of deception.  "We
were told that the situation here had destabilized and that we were needed
to restore order.  By the time we got here, things were almost back to
being under control and the mission changed to trying to figure out what
had been done and how we could help to maintain order."

Xander nodded.  "Things were getting bad, but Willow and Tara cast a spell
that helped a lot.  Spike and I have been doing clean up ever since."

"If you'll let us, we want to help with that."  Riley hesitated.  "What
made the situation go bad?"

Spike's hand pressed lightly against the center of Xander's back, a
wordless gesture of support.  Xander drew in a shuddering breath.  "I
don't know how much you've heard.  A few months ago Joyce got sick.
Buffy's mom," he added for the sake of Riley's friend.  "She'd seem to get
better for a little while and then things would get bad again.  Just when
we thought she was getting better, she died."  His throat closed up and he
couldn't speak for a moment.  He could still feel the loss of Joyce
ripping through him.  To him, she'd represented home and family and love
and stability; she was home, the kind of home he someday hoped to make for
himself.  When she died, a lot of that hope died as well.

Spike's hand moved in soothing circles, a point of contact that helped
Xander to focus on finishing the story.  He cleared his throat, but his
voice still came out rough.  "After Joyce died, Buffy took over caring for
Dawn.  Her sister.  It looked like we might be able to find a way to
juggle everything so that things would come out right.  Then Dawn got

"What's wrong with her?" Riley asked.

"We don't know.  Buffy and Giles are concentrating on trying to find out."

"That's why she hasn't been patrolling."

"The rest of us have been trying to take up the slack."

"What's he doing here?" Riley asked, nodding toward Spike.

Xander didn't have to look at Spike to know the gesture he was making was
obscene.  "Spike's helping.  Without him, Sunnydale might have been a
smoking crater by the time you got here instead of its lovely
demon-infested self."  He jerked his chin toward Riley's friend.  "What's
he doing here?"

"He's here to help, too.  Xander, this is Graham Miller.  I worked with
him in the Initiative.  He's a good friend."

Graham.  Xander now had a name to go with his fantasies.  He stood up at
the same time as Graham and reached out to shake his hand.  The other
man's hand was warm, his grip firm.  Xander wanted to pretend that it
lingered, but he knew that was a combination of his own doing and wishful
thinking instead of reality.  "So now what?" Xander asked.

"We want to help, if you'll let us," Graham said.

Xander hesitated.  He and Spike could used some help.  Even with reduced
hours coming up he wasn't going to be able to keep up the pace of
patrolling and work for much longer.  It was risky; he wasn't certain that
he could trust them completely.  He looked at Spike and read concern in
the other man's blue eyes.  If he and Spike were careful, they could keep
the secret of Dawn's nature hidden.  With a little more effort, they could
probably hide the arrangement Xander had made as well.  "I'd be glad of
help.  Can we all agree to bury the hatchet and work together?"

Graham and Riley nodded.  Spike shifted restlessly.  "Just so long as it's
understood that the first time you two make a wrong step, I'll find a way
to bury that hatchet in your heads."

Riley flushed and rose to his feet.  Xander held up a hand to forestall
his reply.  "We can take the bickering on the road.  We've got a nest of
fledges to clear out tonight, so I don't want to waste any more time."
Xander waited for everyone's acknowledgement and geared up before leading
the way out of the apartment.

As they walked toward the cemetery, Spike stayed closed to him.  "The
fledges are going to be in the same place we found them last night," the
vampire said.

Xander shot him a grateful look.  Spike was making it seem as though he
were the one that knew where to find the demons they hunted night after
night.  He was protecting Xander's secret.  Xander gave in to the warmth
that filled him and smiled his thanks at the vampire.  He received a smile
back in return, and Spike moved even closer to him.  The vampire's
presence made it difficult to talk to Riley or Graham; Spike was always
right there, between him and the other men, blocking his view of them.  It
was a little awkward, but Xander liked having him close.  If nothing else,
it was stopping him from looking like an idiot in front Graham by babbling
at him.

Once in the cemetery, Xander and Spike led the way to the place where
they'd encountered the new-made vampires the night before.  Predictable
creatures, those that remained were in the same area.  The temptation of
three humans proved to be too much for them and the remaining members of
the nest soon converged on the four of them.

Xander concentrated on keeping fangs out of his neck as he fended off the
vampires that had chosen to focus on him.  He knew Riley could take care
of himself and he figured Graham could do the same.  He trusted that Spike
would be watching his back; the vampire had kept him alive over the past
weeks, never once abandoning Xander to the demons they'd faced.  He staked
an overconfident fledge first thing, and then nailed its indignant buddy.
He ducked quickly as a third ran at him snarling, bringing one of his
stakes up sharply and spearing it squarely through the chest.  As ash
showered down upon him, he looked around quickly.  Riley and Graham were
each finishing up their last opponents and Spike was watching him with
worried eyes.

"Are you all right?"  The vampire reached out as thought to touch him,
then aborted the movement and lit a cigarette.

Xander shook his head.  What was he thinking?  Why would Spike want to
touch him?  "I'm fine."  He watched Graham kick his fledge in the face and
follow through with a smooth thrust with his stake.  His eyes caught every
ripple of muscle, every graceful, deadly twist.  He jerked his gaze away
as soon as he realized he was staring.  The last thing he needed to do was
alienate Graham.

As Graham and Riley checked on each other, Spike leaned in and asked,
"Where to next, pet?"  His lips almost brushed Xander's ear as he spoke.

Repressing a delighted shudder, Xander shook his head.  "Nowhere."  He
tapped his head.  "I'm empty.  We're going to have to go visit him again."

Spike scowled, his jaw tight with tension.  "Tomorrow," he said firmly.

Xander acquiesced easily.  He wasn't all that eager to pay the visit, but
it had to be done.  "You'll come with me?"

Spike blinked.  "Of course."  He sounded surprised that Xander had even

Xander resisted the urge to smack himself upside the head.  He really
needed to talk to Willow about that hormone-suppressant spell.  He was
really beginning to imagine things.  He watched Riley and Graham walk over
to join them.  Now he just needed to get home without looking like a
complete idiot in front of Spike or Graham.  Watching Graham's confident
walk and small half-smile and feeling Spike's leather-clad shoulder brush
against his, he knew he was in trouble.


Graham watched in concern as Xander yawned again while walking back to his
apartment.  The dark-haired man wasn't just tired from the fight; he was
utterly exhausted.  Some of it could be expected:  Xander had acquitted
himself well during the confrontation with the vampires.  He'd fought with
determination, relying on experience instead of fancy maneuvers.  Coming
down from an adrenaline high usually sapped one's strength, but Xander
looked ready to curl up and sleep in a convenient alley.

He shifted impatiently.  He wanted to make sure Xander was all right, but
he was having a difficult time even getting a clear view of the other man.
 Spike was constantly beside Xander, blocking Graham's access to him.  It
was making the soldier a little crazy.  Finally meeting Xander hadn't
helped him get over his crush; instead, it only made things worse.  He'd
gotten to see Xander up close, look into his dark eyes and hear him say
his name.

He'd *touched* him.  He reached out and taken Xander's hand.  He'd cheated
a little during the handshake and held on for a few extra seconds,
memorizing the feeling of Xander's callused palm, the strength in his
fingers and the heat of his skin.  That little touch had sealed Graham's
fate.  His crush was rapidly becoming something stronger with every moment
he spent with Xander.

Even if there was a vampire with some kind of peroxide fetish standing
between them.  Refusing to look at Spike any more than he had to, Graham
put his secret ops training to use and managed to maneuver around the
blond man so he could walk next to Xander.  "Are you sure you're all

Xander's smile lit his eyes.  "Yeah.  I'm fine."

"You just seem awfully tired."  Graham hoped he was coming across as
concerned rather than nosy.

Spike laughed derisively.  "Can't imagine why he'd be tired.  He just
worked a full day at a construction site and then went running about a
bloody cemetery."

Graham glared at him.  He didn't care how touchable Spike's cheekbones
were, he wasn't going to just sit there and let the vampire snipe away at
him and interrupt his Xander time.  Besides, he didn't like how close
Spike was staying to Xander.  The blond man was practically hovering over
him.  He was distracted from making a snide comment in return by their
return to Xander's apartment building.

Xander smiled a little hesitantly.  "You guys want to come up?"

Graham nodded quickly.  "There are still a few things we should discuss."
He refused to turn around and look at Riley.  He was technically stepping
into Riley's position and usurping his place, but he knew his friend was
going to be amused rather than upset.  He didn't want to turn around and
see Riley laughing at him.  On the upside, his quick agreement seemed to
have irritated Spike, which made up for the vampire laughing at him, just
a bit.

Once inside the apartment, he settled down in the chair he'd occupied
before.  He watched Spike follow Xander around the apartment like he was
his shadow, only stopping once Xander sat down on the couch.  Spike
flopped down beside him, sprawling across the rest of the available space.

Riley cleared his throat.  "I'm kind of surprised that Anya isn't here
waiting for you."

Xander's gaze dropped to his hands.  "Anya left," he said quietly.  "She
sort of freaked out after Joyce died.  It was like she all of a sudden
realized that being human meant dying.  She said she couldn't stay in
Sunnydale.  Not even..."  His voice trailed away into silence.  "I
couldn't leave.  She did."

Graham hated the pain he could hear in Xander's voice.  He hated Anya for
not being willing to stay with him.  He hadn't like thinking about his
crush being with someone else, but he liked knowing that Xander had been
hurt even less.  He noticed that Spike was glaring at Riley.  Because his
question upset Xander?

Spike stood up abruptly.  "I think it's time for you two to go."

Graham wanted to object, but Xander's yawn made him reconsider.  Xander
did need to sleep.  He rose to his feet.  "Do you want our help tomorrow

Xander smiled gratefully at him.  "It would make things a lot easier.
Could you meet us back here around ten?"

"Why not right after sunset?" Riley asked.

"I've got something to take care of."  Xander's voice sounded extremely
casual, but the shadows that appeared in his eyes and Spike's sudden
restlessness sent off warning bells in Graham's head.  Whatever this
something was, it couldn't be good.

Riley stood up.  "Then I guess we'll see you at ten."  He moved toward the
door, eliminating any chance Graham had for asking questions.  He had no
choice but to wish Xander good night and follow Riley to the door.  He and
Riley paused, waiting for Spike to join them.  When the vampire gave no
sign of leaving, Riley stopped Xander from closing the door behind them.
"Isn't Spike leaving?"

Xander shook his head.  "Spike lives here, most of the time.  He doesn't
pay rent, but he's my roommate.  A lot has changed since you left."
Behind him, Spike stared directly at Graham, one eyebrow arched.  Xander
hesitated.  "Have you seen Buffy yet?"

"No.  I can't."  Riley shrugged helplessly.  "I just can't."

Xander reached out and touched Riley's shoulder briefly, his eyes full of
commiseration and understanding.  "I'll see you tomorrow."  His gaze slid
over to meet Graham's and then he disappeared behind the closing door.

Graham fumed quietly as they headed back for the vehicle.  He wasn't
imagining things:  the look that Spike had shot him had been a challenge.
What was Xander thinking, letting a vampire stay with him?  Sure, Spike
was chipped, but he was clearly still up to something.  "I don't like this
at all," he said, climbing into the driver's seat.

"What, that you don't get to stay with him?"

"Besides that."  Graham drove back toward base.  "Did you notice that
Spike was the one leading us to the vampires?"

"While last night it was Xander who was doing the leading?"  Riley nodded.
 "I caught that.  I want to know how they know where to go.  If it's
through Spike's contacts, then why was Xander leading last night?  I also
caught on that whatever Xander's doing tomorrow, he doesn't want us to
know about it.  It's a good thing we'll be following him."

"What about Spike?"  Graham knew that it couldn't just be his imagination.
 "He's acting weird, isn't he?"

"He's always rude, but you're right.  He's staying too close to Xander."
Riley stared blindly through the windshield.  "If he can't get close to
Buffy right now, he might be doing this as a way to stay on her good side.
 You know, protect her friend and win points with her that way."

Graham didn't reply, but he didn't agree.  He could understand that Riley
was focused on Buffy but he believed that it was twisting his friend's
perspective.  Whatever Spike was up to, it was centered around Xander.
The vampire had been Xander's deadly little guardian devil, always at his
side, warding him from every threat.  That sort of dedication went beyond
trying to get on someone's good side:  Spike had a vested interest in
keeping Xander safe and keeping him close and Graham wanted to know what
it was.

Back at base, he and Riley reported immediately to Tyndal's office.  Riley
briefly laid out the events of the evening.  He concluded his report by
saying, "I believe that both Harris and Spike bear further scrutiny and
they definitely deserve our continued cooperation.  They are the only ones
taking an active role against the descent of chaos."

After Graham nodded his agreement, Tyndal considered Riley's words.  "I'm
going to keep the surveillance on both of them.  I want you two to work
with the surveillance teams, but your chief concern is to work with Harris
and Spike and make sure the HSTs don't take over this town.  I'll be
expecting reports from you every evening."

"Yes, sir."  Graham saluted and followed Riley out of the office toward
their quarters.  He watched Riley strip down for bed.  He couldn't do the
same:  he had too much restless energy inside him.  He knew that he'd just
end up staring at the ceiling and shifting continuously until Riley
threatened to kill him.  "I'm hitting the gym."

Riley grunted his acknowledgement.

Graham made his way to the gym and started doing laps around the empty
track, setting a fast pace to burn off the nervousness that filled him.
As he ran, he pictured Xander smiling a greeting at him, Xander reaching
out to take his hand, Xander focused and determined in a fight, Xander
working in a white undershirt and gleaming in the sun... There was no
denying it; he had it bad.  He knew it was only going to get worse, now
that he was under orders to spend time with Xander.  Maybe he'd be able to
figure out what Spike was up to.  No matter what Riley thought, Graham
knew that the vampire's real focus was Xander.  It didn't matter how much
help Spike was being, or how sexy he looked in black:  Graham wasn't going
to sit there and let him get away with whatever he was planning for
Xander.  Not when Graham was there to stop him.  Not when Graham had some
plans for Xander himself.


"You know, maybe we should look into getting you involved in an anger
management program."

Spike glared up at Xander.  "I can manage my anger just fine."  He focused
his attention back on the fledge lying helpless beneath him.  He slammed
its head down against the ground a few more times.

"We do have somewhere to be."  Xander leaned back against a tall headstone
with his arms crossed over his chest.

The reminder just made Spike growl and increase the force of his attack.
When the fledge was unconscious and no longer begging for release, Spike
staked it and stood up, brushing ash off his duster.

"Feel better?"  Xander's manner was joking, but the concern in his eyes
was real.

Spike ignored the question.  "I thought you were in a hurry."

Xander shook his head and started walking.  "You don't sound like you feel
better.  Maybe you should try something else.  Maybe you could join an
encounter group or something so you can talk about your feelings with

Spike raised his hand in an obscene gesture behind Xander's back.  Talk
about his feelings?  The only person he needed to talk to about his
feelings was the person who was responsible for them.  The person who made
him feel so protective that he turned into a bodyguard, the person for
whom he wished he could bleed and hurt, the person who made him want to go
on existing even though he was neutered by the chip.

The person who was taunting him with bleeding 'anger management therapy'
and trying to distract him out of his bad mood.

He didn't know how it happened, but then, he didn't expect to.  It didn't
do any good to sit around and try to understand love, and he knew better
than to try to fight it:  all he knew to do was accept it and give in to
it and try to enjoy the ride as much as possible.  He knew that he found
Xander attractive:  with his dark eyes and mobile mouth and delicious
scent of fear and determination, he was hard to resist.  It was getting to
know Xander that had doomed him, though.  Before, he could sit back and
laugh at the other man's clumsiness in a fight or anxious nattering when
with his friends.  Now he'd seen Xander's stubborn refusal to ever give in
or give up, heard him laugh for true and not for show, watched him
half-kill himself to protect his friends and include Spike in that
category.  It hadn't taken long for Spike to realize that he was in
trouble, that lust had deepened and transformed into love while he wasn't
paying attention.  Now he no longer imagined just tumbling Xander down to
the ground and taking him; he wanted to make Xander laugh and gasp and beg
him for more, to hold him before and after and know that Xander was his.

Caught up in his thoughts, he was surprised by how quickly they reached
the crypt they were seeking.  He reached out and caught Xander's arm.
"There are other ways we can do this."

Xander shook his head.  "No way is going to work better than this.  I have
to do this."

Spike released him reluctantly.  He hated this, but one of the things that
drew him most to Xander was the dark-eyed man's refusal to stop just
because something was difficult.  He knew that he couldn't stop Xander
from doing it, so he would do his best to not make it any harder than it
had to be.  "I'll be waiting, pet."

Xander smiled at him and touched his shoulder comfortingly.  "It won't
take long," he said reassuringly before entering the crypt.

Spike growled and kicked over a headstone.  Xander was trying to comfort
*him*.  Him, when Xander was the one the Cynon had fixated on.  Spike
hated Cynons on general principles and hated this one even more for
hurting Xander.  Unrelated to vampires, Cynons fed off the emotional
energy of their victims; the darker and more painful the emotion, the
better the damn things liked it.  He and Xander had encountered this one
when they had just started to patrol in Buffy's place.  Spike had wanted
to kill it for its interest in Xander, but before he could, it had offered
Xander a compromise:  if Xander would allow the Cynon to feed from him,
the Cynon would use its psychic abilities to keep him informed about
demonic activity on the Hellmouth.

Xander, being Xander, said yes.

Spike moved closer to the crypt so he could see through the door.  He
hated watching this but he didn't want to leave Xander alone with the
Cynon.  He compromised by watching from outside.  The minute the bastard
made one move to go beyond its bargain, Spike would take its head off.

The Cynon was circling Xander, skimming over the ground in that smooth
gait peculiar to its species.  In appearance, it was closer to human than
most demons, with skin of palest blue and small horns in a darker shade
ringing the top of its head.  Its over-large eyes were fixed on the
dark-haired man and its tongue skated over full lips.  "What shall we do
today?" it mused in a low voice.

"Something that won't take too much time?" Xander suggested.

Spike ground his fist into the stone of the crypt, focusing on the pain as
a way to stop himself from walking in there and dragging Xander out.
Xander knew what was coming and dreaded it, but he still found the will to
mouth off a bit.  It made Spike proud as hell, and made watching that much
more difficult.

"I think...loneliness.  Yes.  I think that will do nicely for tonight."
The Cynon reached out its hand so that it hovered bare inches away from
Xander's face.  "Loneliness."  It hummed quietly as it began to summon
forth that emotion from Xander.

Fine tremors ran through Xander's frame, growing stronger as each second
passed.  Face twisted in lines of pain, he stubbornly kept his eyes open,
refusing to look away from the demon.  As his shaking grew worse, tears
began to stream down his face and still his eyes remained open and his
gaze locked upon that of his tormentor.

Not even the pain was enough distraction for Spike now.  He stopped
grinding his fist bloody and watched helplessly.  Cynons worked by getting
inside the minds of their victims and summoning up emotions on which to
feed.  Right now, Xander was reliving every moment of loneliness he'd ever
experienced all at once, the pain of it magnified a thousendfold for the
demon's pleasure.  Spike knew loneliness, knew what a killing sensation it
was and he hated that Xander had to go through this.  He'd stand in for
Xander if he could, but the Cynon had no interest in him.  Only Xander.

A noise distracted him from the interior of the crypt and he turned
quickly, ready to take out his rage and frustration on whatever was
foolish enough to sneak up behind him.  He froze when he saw who it was:
Riley and Graham.  "What the hell are you doing here?"

"I could ask you the same thing," Riley said.

"Where's Xander?" demanded Graham.

Spike fought to keep himself from slipping into gameface.  Did Graham
think Spike didn't know?  Did Graham think Spike couldn't smell the
attraction and interest on him whenever he looked at Xander?  Spike knew
what was going on:
  Graham wanted *his* Xander.  "Xander's busy," he snarled.

Graham moved as though to look in the crypt and Spike instantly countered
him, blocking his view.  What was going on inside was none of their
business.  He knew that Xander didn't want people to be looking in on him
and watching him while he suffered.  Even more, he knew that Xander didn't
want the Initiative to find out about the Cynon.  Not only was he nervous
about what they could do to him, but he feared that they would take some
action against the demon and destroy his valuable source of information.
Spike might not be able to take Xander's place before the Cynon, but he
could help make sure that nothing else happened to upset him.  The soldier
boys were staying outside the crypt.

And Graham especially was staying away from *his* Xander.

"He doesn't want your help in this," Spike said, standing firm.  "He
doesn't need it.  It's none of your business."

Graham shook his head.  "Whatever you're hiding, it ends now.  Move or be
moved.  I'm checking on Xander."

Spike stepped forward, getting into the soldier's face.  "No.  It's not
your concern."  When Graham moved to side step him, Spike grabbed his arm.
 He knew it was foolish, knew that he couldn't do anything to stop Graham,
not with the chip in his head.  He still had to try, had to protect Xander
in any way that he could.

Graham countered by grabbing Spike's arm and trying to throw him off.
Spike refused to be moved.  Ignoring the first warning twinges from the
chip, he shoved Graham backwards.  He shook his head to clear it and set
himself stubbornly in front of the blue-eyed man.  "No."  He watched
Graham clench his jaw and prepared himself for a fight.  It was going to
hurt, but he was going to buy Xander as much time as possible.


The shaky voice behind him drew his attention away from the confrontation.
 He turned and watched Xander exit the crypt, face pale and drawn in lines
of pain.


Xander hurt.  The inside of his head throbbed, protesting the Cynon's
invasion of his mind.  His eyes burned from the tears he had shed and his
arms and legs were weak with reaction.  He felt battered inside and out.
When he stumbled outside, he just wanted to get away from the Cynon and
reach the comfort of Spike's company.  He called for the vampire as soon
as he left the crypt.

Spike was at his side in an instant.  "Are you all right?  How are you
feeling?"  He gently touched Xander's arm and guided him over to a low
gravestone so he could sit.

Xander raised his hands to his temples.  "It hurts," he admitted quietly.
"But it always hurts."  His headache was intensified by the new
information pressing in on his awareness:  the locations of various
demons, the plans they'd made, how long he had to find and kill them
before they could hurt any innocents.  He looked up at Spike, wanting to
tell him what he'd learned and what they should do next.  Before he could
say anything, he caught sight of Riley and Graham staring at him.  "What
the hell are they doing here?"

Spike pressed a few aspirin into his hand.  "They just showed up.  They
wanted to interrupt, but didn't get the chance."

"Are you all right?"  Spike could've been hurt trying to stop them.

Spike laughed.  "You're asking me that when you're the...take your

Xander obediently dry-swallowed the pills, grimacing at the foul taste.
"I don't know why I bother with these.  They don't help."  He knew he was
going to have to deal with Graham and Riley's presence but he wasn't up to
it.  He needed a little while longer to recover first.

"No?"  Spike's fingers were cool against his forehead.

"Not any more.  I'm almost at the point where I'm willing to try...your
alternative."  At the last moment he remembered they had company and he
censored himself.  Spike seemed to dislike the pain and exhaustion that
shook him every time he went to the Cynon.  After a few encounters, Spike
went so far as to offer Xander his blood.  Not to turn him, though;
apparently a vampire's blood held certainly healing qualities.  Xander had
refuse the offer when it was first made but he was almost willing to try
it now.

Spike's hand moved down to grip his shoulder hard.  "Anything you want,

Xander thought the blue eyes staring down at him darkened and that Spike's
voice sounded eager and almost...husky.  He stared up at Spike for a
moment before he realized how ridiculous his thoughts were.  Spike was
just offering to help him as a friend.  Imagining that there was anything
else behind the offer was foolish and dangerous and Xander already had
enough of both going on in his life at the moment.  He contented himself
with smiling up at Spike.  "Thank you."

Spike squeezed his shoulder again, then shifted to stand beside him rather
than in front.  He still kept his hand on Xander's shoulder, though.

Xander had an unobstructed view of Graham and Riley.  "What are you doing

"That's what I want to ask you," Riley said.  "What the hell happened to
you?  What's inside of there?"

Xander stared at him steadily.  How had they found him and Spike?  They
weren't supposed to meet them for another hour.  "You were following me.
You, or a surveillance team you've got targeting me."  It was the only
thing that made sense.  It also explained why the soldiers hadn't been all
that surprised to see Spike.  "How long have I been under surveillance?"

Riley hesitated, then sighed and gave in.  "Under a week, I promise you.
There's surveillance in your apartment and you've been followed to work.
Beyond that, no one's been able to stick with you when you've gone out on

Spike snarled.  "You've been following us?"

Xander laid his hand on Spike's stomach in a light restraining touch.
"Standard procedure.  What else would they do if the situation in dear old
Sunnyhell went to shit?"  He turned his attention to Riley and Graham.  "I
want it called off."

"On one condition," Graham said.  "What was going on in there?  What hurt

"I've got one more condition, then," Xander countered.  "I'll tell you,
but I need your word that you won't interfere."

"Fine!" Graham said.  "What happened?"

Xander chose his words carefully.  He really didn't want to explain the
whole thing to them.  "I've got an arrangement with a demon.  He gives me
information about the other demons in town in exchange for the privilege
of scaring the hell out of me.  It's not a big deal."

"You look like you've been through hell," Graham objected.  "We've got
trained surveillance teams at our disposal.  You don't have to do this."

"Did your surveillance teams know that a pair of Fritandor demons are
planning on making their home beneath the Second Street nursery school?
Easy access to snacks for the young ones that are on the way."  Xander
shook his head.  "Your surveillance isn't going to cut it.  I need him.
We need him if we're going to have a chance."

"I don't like it."

"Neither do I.  Neither does Spike.  That doesn't change the fact that
it's our best bet for keeping people alive.  Are you going to stay out of

"Yes," Graham agreed.

"And pull the surveillance from us," Spike insisted.  "All of it."

"So long as you don't resist us patrolling with you, that shouldn't be a
problem," Riley said.  "We need to keep open communication."

"Fine."  Xander didn't like the creepy feeling of knowing that he'd been
monitored for the past few days without his knowledge.  He understood why
it had been done, but he was glad to know that it was over.  "Now that
we've got that settled, I guess we should get moving."

"Are you sure you're all right?" Spike asked.

"I'm as good as I'm going to get tonight.  I think we should tackle the
Fritandors tonight.  I don't want them to establish themselves and then
have to dig them out later."  He rose carefully to his feet, aware of
Spike hovering over him, ready to offer him aid if he needed it.  He
smiled briefly at the blond man and stretched painfully.  "Let's go."

As they walked, Spike stayed close to him, watching him carefully.  Xander
knew the first time that he showed an overt amount of pain or weariness
the vampire would insist on taking him home.  Xander figured it was a
leftover from Spike's time spent with Drusilla:  the blond man had
definite tendencies to be a mother hen.  It messed with Xander's head,
making him think that Spike cared more than he really did, making him
think that he was special to Spike instead of realizing that it was just
the way Spike was.

Thanks to the information in his head, finding the Fritandors was easy.
Getting a chance to fight them wasn't.  He was willing to take his chances
and try to take them down, but he never even got close.  Spike charged
into the fray immediately and took out the male of the pair before the
demons even knew they were in trouble.  Xander moved to take on the female
but Graham got there first.  Between the blue-eyed solder and Spike,
Xander and Riley never had an opportunity to try to land a blow.  The
other two men dispatched the enraged demon in a matter of minutes.  Xander
and Riley exchanged irritated glances, although Xander thought he saw
amusement in Riley's gaze as well.

When Spike and Graham fell back to join them, Xander asked, "There's a few
fledges who are aspiring to try to rise above the level of minions not far
from here.  We could go take care of them."  His last words were distorted
by a yawn.

Spike shook his head.  "No more tonight.  You need to rest."

Before Xander could object, Graham agreed with Spike.  "If you've got to
work tomorrow, you're going to need to sleep."

Finding no support when he looked at Riley, Xander gave in.  "Fine.  You
two can use the extra time tonight removing all the bugs from my
apartment."  He frowned.  "Are you watching anyone else?"

Riley answered quickly.  "Not any more.  All teams will be called off

Xander nodded.  "Good."

Walking back to his apartment was an interesting experience.  Spike and
Graham both walked close to him.  Xander knew what was going on, of
course.  Spike might not say anything, but he had to be nervous being so
close to members of the Initiative.  He was staying close to Xander
because they were less likely to make a move on him in front of a witness.
 No doubt Graham was worried about a vampire being so close to a human, so
he was staying close to Xander to make sure that Spike didn't try

Not that Xander had to accept reality.  As they walked, he allowed himself
to build a little fantasy:  Spike and Graham were both attracted to him -
better yet, they were in love with him.  They were walking close to him
because they couldn't bear to be too far from him.  It was silly and
impossible, but it helped to pass the time as they walked home.  Smiling
quietly to himself, he allowed himself to pretend for a little while that
he had someone to love and, best of all, that he was loved in return.


Graham caught Riley's eye and nodded quickly.  Riley winked to signal that
he understood and Graham tensed his muscles, ready to put their plan into

The past few days had been killing him.  Spending a few hours every night
in Xander's company had sealed his fate:  he was now in love with the
other man.  The way Xander smiled at him, the way he never complained even
though he was obviously tired or hurting, the way he listened to everyone
speak and was guided by them in making decisions, the way his pants clung
in all the right places when he hunkered down to watch their prey...it all
combined to cause him to fall helplessly for Xander.  He was incredibly
grateful to have been ordered to work with Xander because there was no
other way that he would have been able to get to know the other man.  He
was finally able to see beyond the always-cheerful surface and see the
dedicated, determined man hidden beneath.  He was in love with Xander.

Now if only Spike would get the hell out of the way so Graham could *do*
something about it.  The damn vampire was always there, always standing
between Graham and Xander so that Graham couldn't say anything to the
dark-haired man without Spike being a part of the conversation.

If he hadn't been so hung up on Xander, Graham might have decided to make
a play for Spike and turn the vampire's presence to his own advantage.
Spike was handsome, no denying it; and the way he moved and talked pretty
much screamed sex.  Graham hadn't been immune to the attraction when Spike
had been captured months ago and he wasn't immune now.  This time around,
though, his heart was involved and that changed everything.  He could
still feel the pull of Spike, but it was Xander that captivated him.

That was the reason he had convinced Riley to help him.  Not only could he
count on Riley's help because he was a good friend, but also because it
was sure to irritate Spike.  Riley still hadn't forgiven Spike for giving
him hell about his relationship with Buffy.  Graham was inclined to think
it was a head game Spike had played with Buffy and Riley both; if he
really wanted her, wouldn't he be hanging around her now?  He wasn't going
to argue with his friend, though, not when Riley was about to run
interference for him.

Acting on Graham's signal, Riley picked an argument with Spike.  "Are you
sure you know how to handle these demons?  I ran into something like them
with the Initiative and we did something different."

"Pissed yourselves and ran screaming for mommy?" Spike suggested snidely.

The argument was off and running.  Riley held Spike's attention by first
challenging his knowledge and then just by bickering with him.

Not wasting the chance given to him, Graham quickly moved to take Spike's
place at Xander's side.  He smiled at the dark-haired man.  "Hey."

Xander smiled at him.  "Hey."

Graham felt like an idiot.  Here was his one chance and he had no idea
what to say without coming off as an idiot or overly creepy.  'Hey, I'm in
love with you'?  'I know we've just met but would you like to stay with me
tonight, stay with me every night'?  He'd just send Xander fleeing in
justified terror.  He glanced over at Riley and Spike.  "They sound like
an old married couple."

Xander rewarded him with a grin.  "God, you're right.  Just don't tell
them that."

Graham felt better.  At least he'd made him laugh.  "So are these
Glidernts the usual demon?  Slavering for human blood and all that?"

"All that and ugly.  Ugly by even Hellmouth standards."  Xander shuddered.

"I noticed that," Graham said.  "I never got to see anything attractive
when I was stationed here."  Now or never.  "Not until the past few days,
that is."  He held Xander's gaze.

Xander stared at him for a moment as the meaning of Graham's comment sank
in.  Color rose up in his cheeks, but he didn't look away.  "I've, uh,
noticed that the quality of the nightlife has gone up myself."  His voice
was a little shaky, but a hesitant smile that played at the corners of his

Xander was flirting back!  Graham managed to resist the urge to do a
victory dance.  He smiled and scooted closer Xander.  "Would you like to
try exploring some of the new nightlife?"  He winced.  He always ended up
sounding cheesy when he tried to be coy.

The color deepened on Xander's face, but he held Graham's gaze.  "I
haven't gotten a chance to do much exploring lately," he said.  His
expression became a little naughty.  "And most of my interaction with the
local nightlife involves pointy objects."

Graham laughed.  "Ain't nothing wrong with pointy objects."  He sobered a
little as he said earnestly, "We could start exploring with something
  A movie theater maybe?  Or a restaurant."

Xander grinned at him.  "I think that could be a lot of fun."

"What could be a lot of fun?"  Spike's voice was loud in Graham's ear.

Graham swore and took a few steps back, thoroughly startled by the abrupt
interruption.  Spike took advantage of his startlement and eeled his way
back to stand beside Xander.  Graham glared mutinously at Spike and
refused to answer.

"Hurrying up and taking care of these demons so I can sleep.  If we finish
quickly I'll be able to sleep for six hours!  That sounds like fun to me."
 As he spoke, Xander glanced over at Graham and the blush stayed on his

Graham grinned at him.  Xander was willing to keep their date a secret and
he was looking forward to it.  He caught Riley's gaze and shot him a
surreptitious thumbs up.  Riley grinned, sharing in his triumph.

As they neared the place that Xander had identified as the demons'
location, Graham calmed down and focused on the fight that was coming up.
All of them readied themselves, pulling out weapons they'd brought with
them.  The building the Glidernts were hiding in was little more than a
one room shack and Graham didn't like the idea of being hemmed in so
closely with the demons.  "Maybe we could lure them out?"

"With what?" Riley asked.  "Tell them that we're the take-out they

"No way," Spike muttered.  "Glidernts have taste."

Graham and Riley both turned on the vampire, but Xander was there in
between them.  "Let's focus on getting the bad guys before we turn on each
other, all right?"  He looked at Spike.  "Do you speak their language?"

"Not much," Spike admitted.

"Enough to say something about their mothers?"

"I could imply that they have mothers.  That should be enough to bring
them out here."  Spike looked toward the shack and yelled in a language
that was mostly gargling.

The response was immediate.  Two demons came crawling out of the shack,
shrieking at them in the same gargling language.  They scuttled forward on
four legs, waving another pair in the air as they charged the men facing

Graham hoped his face wasn't twisted up as much as he thought it was.
Ick-face wasn't especially an attractive look for him, but those things
were *nasty*.  He blasted away with his zap gun without hesitation, not
wanting the damn things to get to close.  After a few rounds, he noticed
something.  "Shooting them only pisses them off!"

Spike sneered at him.  "Guess I'll have to take care of things the
old-fashioned way, then."  He pulled a long knife out of his boot and
gargled out a few more insults.

Graham pulled out his own knife and moved to help Spike.  He knew Riley
could take care of himself; his friend was slicing away at the second
demon with a definite look of disgust on his face.  Ignoring Spike's
snarls, he helped the vampire stab the Glidernt, learning its weak spot by
trial and error.

Just as it fell lifeless to the ground, Graham heard Riley's shout for
  He turned and watched as the second Glidernt caught Riley with its front
legs and heaved him into the air.  Xander abandoned his own efforts at
slicing and dicing and tried to help Riley, only to be knocked down hard
to the ground when Riley fell against him.

Graham wasn't quite sure how he crossed the distance to reach the second
demon; one moment he was standing over the dead body of its pal and the
next he was stabbing it vengefully, one thrust for Riley and the next few
for Xander because no one hurt Xander while he was around.  He was vaguely
aware of Spike at his side, spewing curses and tearing the creature apart
with his own blade.  The Glidernt soon collapsed in a lifeless heap.
Graham took a few steps back, panting a little from the exertion.

"Damn."  Riley stared at the ruined pile of flesh.  "Damn."

Maybe he went a little overboard with the killing.  Then he looked at
Xander, who was rubbing the back of his head with an expression of pain
and changed his mind.  He wanted to kill the demon all over again.  He
moved toward Xander, but Spike beat him to his side.  Graham managed to
ask his question first, though.  "Are you all right?  Are you hurt

"Riley's no light-weight," Xander admitted, letting Spike help him to his
feet.  "But I think I'm OK.  I bumped my head a little."  He stared in
horrified fascination at the dead Glidernt.  "Wow.  Did it yell something
back about your mothers?"

Graham kept quiet and ignored Riley's too-mild expression.  He was going
to hear about this later, he knew it.  All his protective instincts were
over-active where Xander was concerned and Riley wasn't going to pass up
the chance to tease him over it.

Spike seemed to want to ignore the question as well.  "Let's get you home,

"You'll be able to sleep," Graham added.  The way Xander looked at him
with a hidden smile told him that Xander hadn't forgotten their earlier
flirtation.  The flicker of warmth inside him grew.  He fell into step
behind Xander, keeping Riley quiet through judicious use of death glares.
The teasing was going to have to wait until they were alone.  He didn't
want to take any chances.

Xander invited him and Riley up to the apartment to wind down and have
something to drink.  Graham accepted immediately, but Riley came along
willingly.  Graham knew Riley was getting to like Xander more; by spending
time with him without Buffy being a factor, Riley was becoming Xander's
friend, instead of just being his friend's boyfriend.  Plus, it pissed
Spike off every time they came up.

When they were all sitting down and supplied with something to drink,
Xander looked over at Riley.  "Um, have you seen Buffy at all yet?"

The smile faded from Riley's face.  "No."

"You should, man.  You two need to talk.  There was too much going on when
you left, too many distractions that you couldn't get past then but I
think now you might have a chance."

Riley stared down into his glass.  "I want to think that, Xander.  I do.
I just can't talk to her.  I'm not ready yet and I'm...I'm under orders."

Xander nodded in immediate understanding.  "That sucks.  Just think about
it, ok?"

Riley nodded.

When Spike stood abruptly, Graham braced himself for a scathing comment
that would compel him to help Riley kick the vampire's ass.  Spike
surprised him, though.  Instead of attacking Riley's relationship with
Buffy, he looked at Xander.  "I've got to make a blood run.  I'll be back
in a few."  He walked out without any further explanation.

Graham couldn't believe it.  Not only had Spike ignored a chance to make
Riley crazy, he was also leaving Xander alone with them!  He watched as
Spike left, then shared a confused look with Riley.  What the hell was
going on?

Never one to waste an opportunity, Graham got up and moved to sit beside
Xander on the couch.  He noticed that Xander looked a little confused as
he stared at the door.  "Are you all right?"

Xander looked at him.  "I'm fine," he said quickly.  He blinked again and
seemed to realize that Graham was sitting beside him for the first time.
A small smile touched his lips.  "I'm fine," he said in a more normal

"And how's your head?"

"Hurts," Xander admitted.  "And having all two hundred pounds of Riley
land on top of me didn't help matters."

"Hey!" Riley objected.  "That remark is going to cost you a beer."  He got
up and headed for the kitchen.

Graham vowed to put up with Riley's teasing later without complaint.  His
friend was trying to give him some privacy.  He shifted so he facing
  "Have you given any more thought to joining me on an expedition?"  Hey,
might be cheesy but it seemed to work with Xander.

Xander nodded.  "I think that I'd like that a lot.  Of course, to cut down
on Hellmouthy interference, it might be a good idea to try doing something
in the daytime first."

Graham's mind immediately flashed to Xander working on the construction
site, arms flexing as he positioned each piece of wood before cutting it
down to the right size.  "Daylight can be good," he agreed quickly.
"Anything in particular you'd like to do?"

"Hey, this is your expedition," Xander said, laughing.  "Just so long as
it's not a fun-filled tour of Sunnydale's purveyors of junk food, anything
will be good."


Xander blushed a little.  "I used to see you at my jobs a lot," he
explained.  "I figure you must be a fan of the fried variety of cuisine."

It was Graham's turn to flush.  Now or never; holding back wasn't going to
gain him anything.  "It wasn't the junk food," he admitted.  "It was the
cute guy behind the counter serving the junk food."

Xander stared at him, shaking his head a little.

"It's true," Graham said.  "I'm really not that big a fan of the hot dog.
I'm just a fan of you."  He held his breath, hoping that Xander wouldn't
decide he was a stalker and make a run for it.

Lips parted, Xander laughed quietly.  "I used to pretend that," he said
quietly.  "You know, that you'd come to see me."  The blush was back on
his cheeks.

Graham couldn't resist, not with Xander blushing and looking at him with
honesty and nervousness and the flickering beginnings of heat.  He leaned
forward, moving slowly so Xander would have every chance to stop him.
Meeting with no resistance, he gently pressed his lips to Xander's.  The
barest brush of mouth on mouth and he leaned back, checking Xander's

Brown eyes slowly drifted open and Xander licked his lips before moving to
repeat the kiss.  Soft lips on his own and Graham was lost, leaning
against Xander and reveling in the warmth of his skin and the scent of
him, so close and finally there to be touched.  He sat back after a few
more moments, not wanting to push Xander.

Xander smiled up at him.  "Wow."

Wow?  He rated a wow?  Not that he disagreed.  The kiss had seriously
short-circuited his vocabulary, but he thought wow pretty much summed it
  "Wow is good.  I can take wow.  Does wow mean that you'll be going out
with me?"

"I've got a few weeks of half-days coming up soon.  I think I could fit
you into my busy social calendar."  Xander sat back a little as Riley came
back into the room.

Graham decided to let up as well.  There was no telling when Spike was
going to return, either, and he wasn't looking forward to a fight.  He
knew there would be; the vampire was too protective of Xander to ever let
anything like this go.  Maybe once Graham got a little closer to Xander
he'd be able to figure out what kind of hold Spike was trying to gain over
Xander and then he could protect Xander from him.

He reached out and touched Xander's arm.  "Do you want anything more to

"Another Coke would be good.  It might help with my head."  Xander moved
to get up.

Graham beat him to it.  "Let me."  He had to get out of the room for a
moment before Xander or Riley caught sight of the lunatic grin he could
feel stretching across his features.  He couldn't help it.  He'd kissed
Xander.  Xander had kissed *him*!  It was grin like an idiot or do a
touchdown shuffle, and the grin was easier to hide.  As he pulled another
can out of the fridge for Xander, he steadfastly ignored the bags of
blood.  He could pretend that he'd never seen them just fine, thank you.
He turned around to head back for the living room just as the door to the
apartment opened and Spike walked in carrying a cooler.

Spike set the cooler down on the counter.  "You still here?"  He spoke
generally, but his eyes were on Graham.  "Past your bedtimes, isn't it?"

Graham wanted to argue with him, but he knew Xander was tired and hurting.
 He didn't want to start a fight that would ruin the happy little buzz he
was feeling, either.  He glared at Spike.  "I guess we'll be seeing you
tomorrow, then."

"Guess you will."

Ignoring Spike's matching glare, he walked past the vampire into the
living room.  He handed the Coke to the dark-haired man.  "See you
tomorrow," he said, his smile under control but still huge.

Xander grinned back up at him with hidden warmth in his gaze.
"Definitely.  And thank you."  He took the soda, fingers lingering as they
brushed over Graham's.  "Good night."

Yes, it certainly had been.  "Good night."  He didn't bother to look at
Spike as he and Riley left.  He did keep an eye on Riley, though, timing
how long his friend would be able to keep his peace.  Riley managed to
hold it in down the stairs, out onto the street, and even into the
vehicle.  Graham made sure to take the driver's seat; he didn't want Riley
be distracted while driving.

Riley made it until they were about a mile down the road before erupting
into laughter.  Graham waited for him to get it all out, not wanting to
interrupt and make it last any longer than it had too.  Finally, Riley got
a hold of himself, although laughter still rumbled up out of him every so
often.  "I thought dating Buffy was bad.  I never had to use tactical
maneuvers just to talk to her!"

Graham grinned.  "But they worked!  Thanks, man.  I owe you."

"You owe me big time, if what I heard from the kitchen is any indication."

"What did you hear?" Graham demanded.

"Nothing."  Riley winked at him.  "That's what makes me think it went

Graham stared resolutely out the windshield for a few moments before he
couldn't hold it in anymore.  "I kissed him," he said.  "I kissed him and
he said he'd go out with me."  He had to say it out loud and make it real.

Riley laughed.  When Graham glared, he held his hands up defensively.
"Hey, I'm glad it's working out for you.  Congratulations on finally being
able to do more than just stalk your crush."

Reminding himself that without Riley's help he never would have been able
to talk to Xander at all, Graham decided to forgive Riley for laughing.
"It's not a crush anymore," he admitted.

Riley sobered immediately.  "It's serious?"

"Yeah.  I didn't know him before."  Now he did, and it was all over.  He
knew Riley would understand - the same thing had happened to Riley when he
finally gotten to know Buffy.  He went from liking her to loving her
powerfully.  Graham had fallen into the same trap; now that he knew
Xander, he wasn't going to be able to walk away from him.  "But now I do,
and I'm going to get to know him better."

Riley just sat there and smiled at him.  "You do have it bad."

"It's only going to get worse," Graham warned.  He was going to take
Xander out and give him the chance to fall as hard as he himself had.  He
was going to earn Xander's trust and his love.

He was also going to figure out what Spike wanted with Xander.  He knew
that look Spike had given him was a challenge.  He wasn't going to let
Xander be hurt in one of the vampire's schemes.  He winced a little as his
thoughts wandered as he considered the vampire.  He couldn't think about
Spike without picturing him in his mind, and he couldn't do that without
feeling the lingering traces of lust.  He'd noticed Spike when he was
imprisoned within the Initiative and had stared at his image on video
monitors and through the shatter-resistant plastic shield that sealed his
cell.  Even exhausted and desperate, Spike had moved with an innately
sexual grace that had drawn Graham in despite knowing what Spike was.
Graham couldn't quite trust himself when it came to Spike, not with lust
clouding his judgement about the other man.  The best he could do was
focus on his love for Xander and trust in that to help him keep to the
right course.

His thoughts back on Xander, Graham settled himself down for the ride back
to base.  He'd have to endure Riley's teasing and a quick debriefing, but
then he'd have the rest of the night to remember what it felt like to hold
Xander and finally know his kiss.


Spike stared resolutely down at the stove top, concentrating on the blood
he was warming.  He was hungry and he needed to eat.  As long he stayed
focussed on those two facts he wouldn't lose control.  He just needed to
get something to eat.  He didn't need to think about what he'd smelled
when he'd walked into the apartment.  He'd needed blood, yes, but he'd
also wanted to check and make sure that the bugs had been removed from the
apartment.  He had checked with the demons he'd intimidated into watching
the apartment and received confirmation that no strange men or cars had
been seen hanging about.  He hadn't wanted to leave Xander alone, but he
hadn't thought anything could happen in the short time he was gone.

No.  He wasn't thinking about that.  Not until he'd had something to eat.
He heated the blood just long enough for it to be lukewarm and then bolted
it.  As the blood filled him with borrowed life, he washed his dishes and
put them away, giving himself time to calm down and move past the hunger
that had been distracting him.  It was more difficult to keep the urges
toward blood and violence under control when he hadn't eaten.

The kitchen clean, he couldn't put it off any longer.  He walked into the
living room, eyes fixed on Xander.  The dark-haired man sat on the couch,
drinking the soda that Graham had given him before leaving.  The scents
surrounding him had faded, but Spike could still catch their echoes:
arousal and nervousness, excitement and pleasure.  Something had happened
while he was gone, something between Xander and Graham.  It wasn't just
Graham, either; for the first time since Anya had left, Spike could smell
Xander's desire.  Graham had made some kind of move on Xander, one that
Xander had liked.

Graham had touched Spike's Xander.  Spike made a mental note to have the
soldier killed as soon as possible.

He wasn't looking forward to this conversation.  He knew Xander wasn't
going to want to talk about it, but he wasn't just going to let him go
without a fight.  He loved Xander and he needed to let him know that.

He sat down on the couch beside Xander, wonder what the hell he was going
to say.  With Dru he hadn't really needed words, and Harmony would fall
for any quick line of bullshit he threw at her.  Playing with the Slayer
had taken planning, but he hadn't meant anything by it.  It was a game,
one he didn't want to lose, but a game all the same.  This was no game.
Love was many things, but it definitely wasn't a game.  He looked into
Xander's eyes, hoping the words would come.

What he saw distracted him completely.  Xander's face was marked with
lines of pain, his eyes half-shut as he slowly turned his head to look at
Spike.  "Are you still hurting?" Spike asked, worry for Xander sweeping
away everything else.

Xander nodded carefully.  "It never really went away, but knocking my head
on the ground didn't help any."

Spike added Riley to his kill list.  "Do you want me to fetch you some
more aspirin?"

"I'm already over the limit for today," Xander admitted.  "I don't want to
push my luck by taking any more."

Knowing that he'd probably be refused, Spike still had to make the offer.
"Any time you want to try something better than aspirin, you let me know."

Xander was quiet for several moments.  He drew in a long breath.  "I think
I'm going to have to take you up on that," he said quietly.

Spike licked his lips.  "Are you sure?"

"Yeah.  Nothing else is going to help and if I don't get rid of this pain
I'm not going to be able to concentrate on anything else.  I've still got
a list of bad guys in my head and I can't just sit this out."

Well, actually he could and Spike would prefer it if he did.  He didn't
like seeing Xander risk his life, but he knew better than to try to keep
him out of things.  "All right."  He moved closer to Xander, sitting
half-turned so he could face him.  He waited until Xander turned to face
him, then tried out a reassuring smile.  "Where do you want to do this?"

Xander blinked, looking a little bemused.  "Right here on the couch."

Spike grinned.  "I didn't mean that.  Of course on the couch.  Where do
you want me to cut myself so you can drink?"

Licking his lips, Xander shook his head.  "I don't know.  Wherever is
easiest for you, I guess.  Somewhere that it won't hurt you."

Resisting the urge to turn to mush, Spike shrugged out of his duster and
rolled up one of his sleeves.  "I think the wrist will work best," he
murmured, pulling out one of his knives.  He'd prefer giving Xander his
blood in several different ways, but this way was the least likely to
frighten him off.  Knowing the other man's gaze was pinned on him, he
carefully cut a short line across his wrist, slicing deep to guarantee
blood flow.  He raised his wrist, extending his hand toward Xander.

Xander's hand shook a little as he reached out to support Spike's wrist.
He glanced up to meet Spike's gaze.  At Spike's encouraging nod, he bent
his head and pressed his mouth to the bleeding wound.

Spike pressed his lips tightly together to stifle the pleased moan that
threaten to break free.  Soft lips feathered gently over his skin, parting
to draw in the crimson rivulets.  A pause as Xander grew accustomed to
what he was doing, and then his lips were pressed tighter against Spike's
skin as he sucked at the wound.  Spike shifted minutely, desire rising in
him at the sensation.  He knew that Xander wouldn't be able to take enough
blood to hurt himself; he'd crafted the wound carefully, knowing that it
would close before Xander drank too much.  He felt his skin begin to knit
and got ready to withdraw his wrist.  Xander evidently realized that the
cut was healing because he stopped sucking at it.  A warm tongue swept
across Spike's skin in soothing, cleansing strokes, then Xander sat back,
letting go of Spike's arm.

Spike controlled his reactions carefully, making sure to nonchalantly roll
his sleeve back down.  He didn't want to make a big deal out of this and
freak Xander out.  He didn't want this to be the last time Xander let him
offer this.

It only took one look at Xander to send all that control went out the
window.  Xander's eyes were wide and wondering and his cheeks were
flushed.  He stared at Spike with parted lips, a small smear of blood at
the corner of his mouth.

Before Spike realized that he wanted to, he was already doing it:  he
leaned forward and licked away the smear, erasing it with a few delicate
laps of his tongue.  He leaned back a little and searched Xander's face.
The other man still looked wondering, but there was no scent of fear on
him.  Not wanting to push Xander too hard but unable to resist, he moved
even closer to Xander, sliding his arm around Xander's waist to pull the
dark-eyed man to him.  Construction-nurtured hardness filled Spike's arms,
wonderfully solid to touch.  He pressed his lips to Xander's in a gentle
kiss, once, twice, and then again in a longer caress.  He swept his tongue
out across Xander's lower lip, begging for entrance.  He could taste
Xander and blood and he wanted more.  With a muffled sound of need Xander
acquiesced, parting his lips and inviting Spike inside.  Spike pulled
Xander even closer, eagerly tasting his mouth for the first time.  The
essence of Xander was stronger, as was the lingering taste of blood.  His
senses were filled with warmth and life and Xander and blood...and
something else.  Spike probed more intently, not wanting the kiss to end.
That element of something else intruded on his awareness, reminding him
not of a taste, but instead of a scent...

With a growl, he pulled away from the kiss.  "Graham."  He was tasting

Xander flinched away, pulling out of his embrace to huddle in on himself
on the other end of the couch.  He wrapped his arms around himself and
stared at the floor, his breath shaky, shuddering.

Spike shoved down the possessive anger that was threatening to take over.
He didn't want to scare Xander.  It wasn't Xander's fault that Graham had
kissed him.  It was Spike's fault for not killing the soldier as soon as
he realized where he interests lay.  He could deal with Graham later.
Right then he had to fix the mistake he'd made.

He scooted closer to Xander and reached out to him once more.  The
dark-haired man resisted, but Spike murmured reassurances and with
insistent pressure drew Xander back into his embrace.  He raised a hand to
brush an unruly lock of hair off Xander's brow.  "How's your head?" he
asked quietly.

"Better," Xander said, eyes widening as he realized it.  "The pain's
gone."  He started to grin, then the pleasure of the relief was gone as he
remembered what had just happened.  "Spike, I'm sorry.  I-"

Spike stroked his fingers through Xander's hair, quieting him with the
slow repetition.  "You don't have anything to apologize for, luv.  You
didn't do anything wrong."  After all, Xander hadn't known he belonged to
Spike.  Graham on the other hand...but that was something to think about
later.  Right now he had to get Xander calmed down.  He could see the
first hints of fear in his brown eyes and knew he was the one who put it
there.  It wasn't Xander's fault two men were throwing themselves at him.

It was Graham's fault.

Pushing his jealousy aside once more, Spike smiled at Xander.  "It's not
your fault I couldn't help myself any longer and had to kiss you, now is

"I didn't do anything," Xander agreed slowly.  "And I don't understand the
sudden urge to kiss me."

"Not sudden, really.  I've wanted to for a while and I didn't want to wait
anymore."  He hoped he wasn't going to sound like too much of an idiot.
"I don't want to push you into anything.  I just wanted you to know I'm
here.  All right?"

Xander nodded.  "I think so."  The fear was gone from his eyes, but he
still looked bemused.

Spike moved in slowly, making his intentions blatantly obvious and giving
Xander plenty of time to protest.  When Xander relaxed a little bit more
into his arms, Spike took it as permission and once again claimed Xander's
mouth in a kiss.  Xander's hesitant cooperation this time sent a shiver of
delight through him as a warm tongue curled around his own.  He explored
the dark-haired man's mouth leisurely, making sure that not only was
Xander breathless by the time he finished, but also that every trace of
Graham had been eradicated.  Barely satisfied, he pressed a kiss to the
corner of Xander's mouth and another just in front of his ear.  Still
holding Xander's warmth close, he quietly asked, "Isn't it about time you
headed to bed?"

Xander's heart rate sped up immediately and he tensed in Spike's arms.
"Um," he said in a nervous tone.  "Um, I..."

"Alone," Spike said with a smile.  "Go to bed and sleep, luv.  I'll talk
to you tomorrow."  He didn't want to do it, but he released Xander and sat

Xander stood up slowly.  "So, um, goodnight?"

"Night, Xander."  Spike watched as Xander disappeared into his bedroom.
He wasn't going to make any declarations of love.  He'd confused Xander
enough for one night without dropping something like that on him.  He
stayed on the couch and closed his eyes, reliving the experience:  the way
it had felt to feel Xander's body against his own, the sweetness of his
taste and his participation.

When there had been no sound of movement from Xander's room for almost an
hour, Spike rose up from the couch and walked over, silently opening the
door and slipping inside.  He stood beside the bed and stared down at the
sleeping man, watching the way his chest rose and feel slowly, envying the
pillow that he cradled in one arm.  He was acting like a pathetic sap, but
he accepted it.  He'd long ago recognized that he was Love's Bitch and he
never claimed Love was a gentle master.  He had fallen hard for Xander and
if turning soft in some ways was the price he had to pay for being in
love, then so be it.

He backed out of the room slowly, reluctant to leave but unwilling to
disturb Xander.  He considered going back out on the streets for the rest
of the night, but decided to stay in and watch television instead.  He
half-way convinced himself that he was doing it because he wanted to and
not out of an insane urge to protect Xander.

As he flipped from one infomercial to the next, he grew less and less able
to ignore something that was disturbing him.  His first reaction to
finding out that Graham had kissed Xander was rage.  He was fine with
that; he was accustomed to jealous anger.  His second reaction, though,
was curiosity mixed with greed.  He hadn't wanted there to be anything of
Graham's presence left on Xander, but he'd wanted to experience that
presence for himself and as he'd tried to remove it he'd found himself
wanting more.

That wasn't right.  He hated Graham for trying to take his Xander.  He was
willing to admit that he found the soldier attractive.  He'd caught sight
of Graham while imprisoned by the Initiative and remembered him because of
his strong, handsome features and muscular physique.  Hell, Graham had
played the starring role in Spike's 'masturbate for the camera' bid to
relieve boredom while waiting for a chance to escape.

Just because he thought the Xander-stealing bastard was attractive was no
reason for him to be greedy for another taste.  There was no reason for
him to want to know what pure Graham tasted like, either.  Disturbed by
the speculations he couldn't stop his brain from mulling over, Spike tried
to go on watching television.  He stared steadily at the screen, but he
was distracted by the memory of measuring blue eyes and a muscled body in


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